1st decent song I wrote.

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Yes,we do.

How can we love people who do not seem to make things worth at all? Why do we become so numb caring for people whom at times don not even think of us in a day or two? Why do we let ourselves hurt and continue hoping for a love that makes us defenseless? And why do we prioritize these people who only see us as options? These are the reasons why sometimes in love, we end up losing ourselves. YES, we continue loving them.

indeed.

Find someone who is worth all the pain.

Heartbreaks.

Heartbreak is an odd kind of pain, because you are not dying. You are not even sick. For all intents, you are perfectly fine, yet inside, where your heart used to be, you are hurt so much that you cannot breathe, you cannot sleep and you cannot stop the tears from falling. You may eat too much; you may not eat at all. Non-smokers become chain smokers, non-drinkers become alcoholic. A broken heart is one of the world’s greatest equalizer, because it can turn even the sweetest angels to a freaking devil.

CREAM PUFFS = Heaven

Oh.... heaven. I miss this. Craving for it right now! It costs about 50-60 each. Imagine paying 50-60pesos and experiencing 5mins of guilt-free heaven-ness! Beard Papa is the best!

A last text from an ex.

The day that I loved you was the day that I died. I am a mere shadow, your constant companion who adored you so much. But you never look back. You never seem to care. For your eyes are already set on your beloved golden sun. I have loved you long enough. Long enough to let go. I have lived in the shadow of my past and have forgotten who I was. In the dark, I have sown the seeds of tomorrow. Over time, they have grown feeble and gray, and one after the other, have started to die. I am just a dreamer of broken hearts and lonely hearts. We people chart this churning abyss and gained nothing but pain. Our souls tarnished and torn are all that is left of us. So, we must part from the ones who hold our hearts. To stop this addiction is to break free from this painful embrace. As I rise from the shadow to gain a new life, I'll look back one last time to the sweetest misery of my life... To give my last kiss and my last good night...

Crappy week indeed!

I'm in sooo much mess right now.

a) I might miss My best friend's pageant. Sorry J!!! :(
b) sore eyes. Oh God! Why right now?
c) delayed school papers
d) days absent. I'm missing a lot in school! Darn it! Midterms is coming up!

This week, I promised a lot of people. Hay. Kaya I don't wanna make promises eh. Shit really do happen. I'm soooo pissed with everything right now.

I feel like I've made stupid decisions these past weeks. I suck at choosing which is which but who's good at it anyways?


I quit my band. Well, they wanted me to be the back up singer and I did. We won. Yeah. We did.
So I quit because I don't believe in the piece/song that we are working on. I mean seriously, it sucks big time! After I quit, THEY(band members) suddenly started ignoring me. They are all guys btw. Turns out, guys can really be bitches. 


But hey! There's no point on wasting time sulking about messed up decisions. We can always hope for something better in the future. 


so.... Must.... Keep.... the positive vibes.... stable.... lol!

Long term or short term?

This has been bugging me since the week started. Suddenly, college became "challenging". Should I focus more on the academics or do what I love? I'm sure I can't do both. It's not physically and emotionally possible. DEADLINES became... well... DEADLY. Wish I had 4 hands and 2 heads. *knocks on wood*

And it sucks more when some people aren't being considerate. SOME PEOPLE ARE BITCHES.

*sigh*

Two more articles to go! :)

So much to do ... So little time.

I haven't done my laundry yet. It's been two weeks already and I'm surprised that I still have clothes to wear. One thing I hate about my college graduating life is that, there's TOO MUCH darn work to do! I mean, seriously, we're still humans, we just have two hands! There's no point on blaming things on other people though. If this wasn't given to us then we wouldn't learn anything. SO yeah, everything happens for a reason. Lol. 2:40am and I've got no sense.

Things to do:

Make 2 articles about either politics or philippine international relations.

Do the friggen laundry.

Assignment for Intro Arts, hand written. err... and get ready for the drama class.

Prepare for the Battle of the Bands Cluster Finals.

SLEEP. EAT. REST.


So yeah, good luck to me.

I hate being here.

This isn't what you call "home". I don't like being here. I want to go to place where everything is peaceful. A place where I can do things. Without worries, problems. I can't concentrate here. I can't write things. It's like I'm being drained or something. There is so much negativity. I wish I'm in a different place right now. :(

June... Oh the smell of school...

Senior year.

. . .


Most prolly I'm going to experience the true wrath of college.

LESS GALA, LESS FUN, MORE SCHOOL WORK.

With under paid cranky professors, deadlines... Oh... deadlines.

Why??? Why me??? :(

On the other side though, I'm more free to do things I want.

What's tough is that, this will be the defining point of my life. Geez.

(under construction)

First Blog!

I never had any plans on starting a blog site. My love for writing gave me the 'first-push' on making one. Since I already have a laptop(thanks to aunt jamie) and my aunt gave me the 'power' to be on-line forever(thanks to tita bhang).(hehehe) Now I have all the time in the world to write. Before, I used to write stuffs on my notebook or a piece of paper. I always see to it that I have a pen and paper beside me. Great thoughts come at around 3am in the morning. :) A first blog should be about the blogger but since I'm not in the mood to think about 'me' I'll do that on my second blog.


EXPECTATIONS:

Well, since I love trying new things... EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED! :) lol

I love music. So, I'll be writing a lot about songs and lyrics and all that jazz.

I love food!!! I'll try to be a good food critic. Foodie. :)

I'm sorta into fashion but I don't really get all the cool things so I'll just post my opinions about clothes, bags and SHOES!!!

I would love to meet different kinds of people. Before, I'm more of a "idontgiveafuckaboutyou" type of girl. I still get that a lot though. People change so gimme a break.

Oh! and I may be harsh in some ways esp about fighting for my opinion but that's a part of me already.

Have fun reading. Ciao!